and I just realized that the title isn't that important, it's what you do that matters, it took me a while to figure that out. I need to train myself to clear out all these old ideas and treat myself a newbie to try to get my foot in another field where I wanna be, of course, it's not going to be at the same level as how I started a few years ago, don't forget that we have gotten many transferrable skills...

none of a few can become a millionaire by being as an employee (no matter what you do), I think finding a place and/or job that makes you kill the time happily is quite important, very often, we hang on to sth that we try not to think about is because of the fear of the change and uncertainties, this is another topic, rather, understanding this will make you clarify what you really want and what really bothers you career-wise, we all have a limited time to live and do the best with what you have learnt and be content with it.

这两天一直在琢磨差在哪里。感觉到了职业瓶颈。有些面试聊的不错甚至超时，但自己的语言拖了后腿。
觉得今年机会很多，但符合条件的申请人更多。尤其是毕业几年有firm经验的年轻人很有竞争力。 关起门来把自己的技能列一下自己都觉得没过硬的本事。不过幸好简历够好，能挣来面试机会。下周可能还有面试，希望能拿到offer.

说实话，上了一天班，吃完饭收拾好家已经有些筋疲力尽。机会虽好但有些力不从心。可我不甘心现状，还是决定拼一下。

下周有个controller的面试。最近面试已经成了生活的一部分。静下来想想，福祸相依。也不知道费了这么大力气最后的结果会是怎样。或许有个飞跃，或许丢掉工作。

中间经历了几次希望与失望。再拿不下，现在的同事都该笑我了。周周找借口面试。最频繁的时候一个上午2个。 经历了几次第二轮但都不了了之。以前不超过3个面试就能搞定，这次连去的带推掉的十几个还没戏。从开始到现在整整五个月，好在坚持到了最后。好了，庆祝去了。