him. Please just don't make any excuse and fool yourself. You as a first-generation immigrant shouldn't try to find a foreign spouse. You think you're having a good time. But actually you've lost a lot also. Those foreign old guys want Chinese girls who just immigrated because the cost for the relationship is quite low. To realistic and rational, you should find yourself a younger Chinese guy who can have fun and share the meaning of life with you. But I myself won't be interested, for that you have slept with the old foreign guy just because you wanted to learn some English. How sad!